I watched 'flashbacks of a fool' last night..the new Daniel Craig film..it had a nice touch to it..nostalgia entwined with the complicacies of growing up..the protagonist, craig, is torn between the seductive advances of his mother's friend and his potential relationship with a female called Ruth..nice movie..especially if you like movies which are slow and make you reflect on your innerself..
Do a lot of people sometimes feel that they maybe grew up too fast..that they would have wanted to prolong their growing up years. I at times feel that i grew up too fast..that i knew a lot of things, knowledge of which could have probably been delayed by a couple of years. There are times when you wonder what it would be like to be a child again..adolescent, carefree..to run into your dad's arms when he came back from office at evenining..to go on for kilometres on end on your bike without a bother in the world..a time when you debated with your friends over how many comic books you bought..when the one thing to be worried about used to be what you would get from your parents on your birthday.
It sometimes feels like life is like a whirwind tour..and you have to experince the delinquencies and idiosyncrasies of so many people and yourself..you re suddenly at a stage when its un cool to be living with your parents, when its fashionable to know boring things about your career and when every little thing that you do has to be accounted for..Suddenly it s like, you re living your parents life once again, you go to work, you're good at your work..but what for..so that you save up enough money to be able to buy a nice house and a nice car..that s what our parents did isn't it..what did we do in our lifetimes to bring in that factor of differentiation from what is conventionality..
Life as it turns out is one big vicious cycle..you seek happiness in every moment, every face, that you encounter..love, joy, happiness..or atleast the pursuit of it..
When we were kids, we wanted to grow up..when we were teenagers, we wanted the financial freedom that comes from being independent (read working)..when we reach that stage, we again yearn to be kids again, to not worry about trivial matters such as house rent and rising fuel prices..when do we stop wanting things that we can lo longer have..a man always yearns for the one thing that he cannot have..how do we define ambition then??
Materialistic pursuits..when does it end..where does it begin..theories of socialism, communism..demand generates products..products generate demands..a guy on a bike aspires to buy a car..a guy in a hatchback aspires to own a sedan..do we want all these things only because they exist..what if they didn't..would we have been devoid of ambition then..its hard to tell...even if that had been the case, i guess we would have devised newer things to drive our ambition, our lust forward..
Random musings..as i like callin what i wrote above..are things i guess everyone thinks about sometime or the other..how much do we do with these musings..
"To see a world in a grain of sand, or a heaven in a wild flower..hold infinity in the palm of your hands, and eternity in an hour"..
